No, I didn’t place any character that cannot be rendered by your browser’s current character set. Yes, it is what it is. Three question marks.

As many would probably shrug off my current state of turmoil as quarter life crisis, if you are one of them then skip the whole damn blog. Suffice to say, I’m placing my blogsite on hold temporarily. I will blog again when this is over.

I’ve just closed a chapter of my life which I may say I’ve made a lot of wrong decisions. And when one wrong decision gets on top of another, let’s just say it wasn’t so nice. Just wish it blew only at my face. But no… It blew pretty much on everyone’s faces; everyone who risked being close to me.

Happy are the people who live by what the world throws at them. These people just let themselves be content that it wasn’t their fault they are in a mess. They stay in that mess but they blame the whole damn world for that mess. It was never their fault.

Well, I’m not one of the those people. Like I said, happy are they. I’m not happy. I screwed. I can’t blame the world for this f*ck up. I’m used to doing what I can to get what I want, what I need, what I want to achieve. I don’t let the world just do it for me. You can see where I ended up.

I’m about to make another decision. As much as I want the world to just make it for me, I can’t. It’s not one of those things. My life is in static. I will decide on how I will open another chapter of my life. I’m not so eager to go on with life. I’m not so eager to live. But people are waiting. People are depending. So for now, I must contemplate. I will stay between the chapters of my life and decide on how I will start a new one. Will it be a better one? or will it be as f*cked up as the recent one?

This is going to be two way decision. A yes or a no. An A or a B. Either one is not pretty. I do not wish to decide. If anyone wishes for me to stay between the chapters, then be my guest. Let my misery end here. Let their misery end now.